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 Today I'm feeling down, I'm not sure why, nothing has happened its just the feeling today has brought me. I wrote a post yesterday that I thought may make sense to someone but I feel like maybe it's come across wrong. Then as I was trying to fall to sleep I wrote another post because my mind wouldn't let me rest until I did. And today I've woke like this. All connected? Maybe so. Sometimes you just feel sad.

 I think today I'm allowing myself to feel certain emotions, I'm feeling grief and I'm feeling guilt. Grief for those who has passed, someone close passed recently and I only shed a few tears. I'm slowly realising that holding back tears for a long time is maybe making lose the ability all together. Of course that's not fully true, I can cry, I will cry but it seems that the moments I should cry a thousand tears I only cry a few. 

 Anyway I don't want to write about that stuff today. I just wanted to say I've set up an email, just in case anyone wanted to reach out. Hopefully not to be mean but sometimes talking to a stranger about similar stuff to you is easier than talking to a loved one. 

 bethsblog90@gmail.com

 Much love
Beth xx
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