Bethlett .

117 . September to me is a transition month. We go from our long bright nights and the feeling of summer freedom to nights slowly getting more dark and a chill appears. It's not a gloomy month but it doesn't have the same pep in its step like July and August.  It's a time of new beginnings, the trees slowly losing their leaves, the bare branches bedding in for the cold winter ahead. September is preparing for the long British chill that we seem to have for a much longer period than the warmth.  I look forward for the arrival of Autumn that September slowly brings, it's my favourite season. There's so much beauty in it. I love the orange overtone that the fallen leaves bring. I love the misty mornings and in all honesty I enjoy the rain. It fascinates me. We don't question the giant in the skies tears when September comes along. We allow him to be a bit sad.  Now September is here we are entering the tail end of the year, we are starting to...

87 . You seem like a distant memory now but you only you left yesterday. November you're one of my favourites. Your like holding on to something. There doesn't seem to be pressure with you November.  December seems so final, I don't know if I'm ready for it.  As the days of December descend the mornings become even colder. Maybe snow will fall. Memories of our lost loved ones get stronger and stronger as the day of Christmas edges ever closer, reminding us that our hearts aren't fully pieced together and those parts that are still glued become full of happiness as we see the faces of those still here beam with excitement and joy.  December you're a funny one, so many people can't wait for you to be over but some never want you to leave. You round off the year in an almighty fashion. With a day filled of love and togetherness but not too far away, just around the corner we start a year all over again. With more mystery and anticipat...

80. Dear Autumn, It's nice to have you here again The coldness of your breath The brightness of your falling leaves So magical in their death Dear Autumn, You weep your tears so publicly For all of us to feel Although we frown at naked trees   We wish for you to heal Dear Autumn, The pink skies that you wake us with May be a shepherds warning I ask you with hasted breath  Please keep them to bring the dawn in Dear Autumn, As we say goodbye to your sister summer With rain and clouds and sometimes thunder  We welcome you with warmth and laughter  With the blankets to fill our families under Dear Autumn, You bring us closer to the end of the year  Our days past with love and fear As we reflect to see how far we've come I'll enjoy you Autumn, you're my favourite one 

79 . I'm lost in the sound of the water. As it flows freely with only one direction for it to follow.  I'm lost in the music that each day creates. The birds singing and the wind rustling the leaves on the trees. It distracts me. A distraction that I beg to have. I need the distraction each moment. My mind is lost sometimes. My mind is lost right now. I'm the opposite of the water. I have no direction to go in. I have nothing to follow, only my daily routine which pushes me when disrupted, it tests me. It's testing right now.  I hate the feeling when your body wants to scream but equally cry at the same time. My body can't decide and I can't direct it.  I wish I was like the water, I wish I knew where to go, I wish my life could decide where it wants to go. Until I decide I shall lose myself further with the water, with the trees. I will appreciate what this world has to offer. I will get myself on track. I don'...

31. HEY EVERYONE :D  Sooo the last two blogs have been slightly different, most of you won't have seen blog 30 because I didn't post it on Facebook or Twitter because I just didn't think most of you would be interested, but by all means take a look if you want too :)  I'm not actually listening to music tonight, I'm watching YouTube videos (I'm obsessed!) because I was in Watford last night and didn't have internet, I couldn't watch the vids I watch so now I'm trying to catch up on yesterdays and today's YES I'M OBSESSED!!  Anyhoo... Wednesday of this week was the 5th November which is bonfire night :D my favourite night of the year. Bonfire night used to scare me a lot because of all the loud noises from the fireworks but now I absolutely love them. I find if I hear them throughout the year I try to see which direction they are from just so I can sit and watch in awe.                    Thank you Robby for...

29. NOVEMBER???!!! Where the did November come from? This year is whizzing by so unbelievably quickly I've almost got whiplash! Soon it will be Christmas, quickly followed by New Year and we start all over again lovelies!  I'm currently on Spotify and I've gone onto the Radio section and chose to listen to some Singer/Songwriters and the first song on is Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter, this song is absolutely stunning! I beg you to listen to it, Damien Rice's album O was one of my favourites a few years ago. I would just listen to it when I was struggling and I'd just relax, have a little cry to myself and sing the house down to all the songs. Beautiful, if any of you listen to my music suggestions please listen to this one.  If you listen to the song that picture will make sense. In a few days time so many of us will congregate around a big bonfire in a field where the children are excited by the toffee apples and the mystical magic of the spa...