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Will You Be My Best Friend?

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I just want a best friend.

Through my life I've had best friends but none of them have lasted. I admit I'm not good at keeping in contact, I'm not good feeling 100% comfortable around others but I'd love to have a best friend. 

The idea of having someone there whenever I'm down, and I be there for them. Someone I don't have to sensor my opinions too, I can show my best side and worst side with no judgement. 

I just want a best friend. I sometimes think that if I were to ever lose Rob, touch wood I don't! I'd be really lonely. I don't think I'd have anyone but my mum. I want to have a best friend who becomes apart of the family. No awkwardness. 

I've ruined all my previous friendships because I push people away. Then I feel guilty and find it hard to be myself with them again. I miss friendship. I miss laughter till I cry, I miss gossiping about nonsense. I just miss having that feeling of having someone else in my life other than family. 

I've been feeling lonely. And I don't want to be alone. 



Much love
Xx 
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  1. Anonymous13 December, 2015 20:59

    For god's sake , pull yourself together. What about your prospective employers? And your husband.

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  2. Unknown13 December, 2015 21:26

    It's like you've read my mind beth this is me down to the last letter. You have your family and work friends and partner but there's no one you can really talk to and just get away and have a laugh with. I miss those days too. Shame I don't live around Beverley anymore :( xx

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    1. This is me13 December, 2015 21:54

      That's exactly it. Of course rob is my best friend, my mum is my best friend and I have friends at work but sometimes I just miss having that feeling of a best friend other than rob or my mum.
      I miss ya being around bev you know!! Come back soon and say hey xx

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  3. Jo15 December, 2015 21:49

    Beth,

    Look around you. There are many people who consider you a good friend - ok you may not class this as "best", but they are there for you and I'm sure (especially in my own experience) you are there for them.

    You say you have ruined previous friendships by pushing people away, but a true friend would never allow that to happen - so maybe they were not true friends in the first place. It is hard to achieve what you call "best friend" status, but embrace all your other friends and you will never be lonely.

    True friends understand more than you may think.

    Hugs

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