I don't want to be consumed by this

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I don't want to be consumed by this

The dreaded fear from this deadly kiss

I wake each morning with hopeful bliss

I don't want to be consumed by this

Every moment I'm going to miss

I don't want to be consumed by this

Weakened legs and thinning wrists

I don't want to be consumed by this

To lose those hugs and ability to kiss

I don't want to be consumed by this

My screaming mind but silent hiss

I don't want to be consumed by this

With moments for us to reminisce

I don't want to be consumed by this

Everyone of you I'm going to miss

No, it's true, I don't want to end up like this

But if I do, whatever's next will be simply bliss

I wrote this poem because I fear everyday my life may take a similar path in which my Dads life took. I fear the illness he had and I think I will every single day of my life. For a moment I felt my emotions and I wrote this poem. I hope it does not offend. Everything I write is from the soul of my heart.

Much love

Beth xxx

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