132.
Sooooooo maybe I should explain...
My last post was written on a down day, quite a heavy down day so like usual I vented my feelings the only way I know how, and post 131 was created...
I wrote that post 12 weeks after giving birth. 12 weeks of tiredness, stress and the creeping feeling of loneliness. I don't want you to think this is a cop out but I was very VERY hormonal. I still had not had the reoccurrence of the ol friend, lady time, so I think my body was screaming for it to happen just so it could breathe a sigh of relief.
To which since, it has WOOHOO! I finally feel like a normal human being again instead of the ball of mood swings and uncontrollable anger walking around the place.
I would just like to say a thank you to those who sent me messages asking if I was okay, I am fine and dandy, just a tad over dramatic sometimes haha
I'd just like to say though that being a new mum can be a lonely job. All your friends are working and you don't have your partner there and the days can feel very long. Baby groups are great but if you're like me and overthink everything, I find them quite daunting. Everybody looks like they have it together, I find myself questioning everything. I only feel these things because I find it quite hard to socialise with complete strangers, I have the ladies I met at antenatal classes who are lovely and we talk about pretty much everything which is GREAT! But I just don't have that confidence yet to go to a baby group or class without them. (I haven't told them that though. So if you're reading *waves* expect me to cling onto you for a while)
What I like about them, amongst many things is there's no sugar coating. I moan about my husband...a lot, we ask each other questions about baby poop and what they are like! We just talk about it all! And being honest is what we need! When things are sugar coated you worry, you think 'why isn't it like that for me?' But every single mum and dad out there has something that another parent doesn't, it's totally and utterly normal. It's no competition. All babies meet their milestones, just at different times.
It's just nice to hear that someone has the same thoughts and questions as you. It confirms the normality of it all.
So in light of the previous post, I promise I am good and happy, I'm learning new things everyday and slowly trying to build my confidence.
Much love
Beth xx
Sooooooo maybe I should explain...
My last post was written on a down day, quite a heavy down day so like usual I vented my feelings the only way I know how, and post 131 was created...
I wrote that post 12 weeks after giving birth. 12 weeks of tiredness, stress and the creeping feeling of loneliness. I don't want you to think this is a cop out but I was very VERY hormonal. I still had not had the reoccurrence of the ol friend, lady time, so I think my body was screaming for it to happen just so it could breathe a sigh of relief.
To which since, it has WOOHOO! I finally feel like a normal human being again instead of the ball of mood swings and uncontrollable anger walking around the place.
I would just like to say a thank you to those who sent me messages asking if I was okay, I am fine and dandy, just a tad over dramatic sometimes haha
I'd just like to say though that being a new mum can be a lonely job. All your friends are working and you don't have your partner there and the days can feel very long. Baby groups are great but if you're like me and overthink everything, I find them quite daunting. Everybody looks like they have it together, I find myself questioning everything. I only feel these things because I find it quite hard to socialise with complete strangers, I have the ladies I met at antenatal classes who are lovely and we talk about pretty much everything which is GREAT! But I just don't have that confidence yet to go to a baby group or class without them. (I haven't told them that though. So if you're reading *waves* expect me to cling onto you for a while)
What I like about them, amongst many things is there's no sugar coating. I moan about my husband...a lot, we ask each other questions about baby poop and what they are like! We just talk about it all! And being honest is what we need! When things are sugar coated you worry, you think 'why isn't it like that for me?' But every single mum and dad out there has something that another parent doesn't, it's totally and utterly normal. It's no competition. All babies meet their milestones, just at different times.
It's just nice to hear that someone has the same thoughts and questions as you. It confirms the normality of it all.
So in light of the previous post, I promise I am good and happy, I'm learning new things everyday and slowly trying to build my confidence.
Much love
Beth xx
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