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End of an era

 10 years...10 long but very fast years!!


Okay, I admit, I'm late to the 10 year blog anniversary, like 7 months late haha but I've been busy.

I can't quite believe I started writing on here over 10 years ago. About my Dad, who has now been gone 10 years as of only a few days ago! Which is mental.


This pocket of space helped me a lot back then, and it continued to help a little while after but it's definitely time for me to say goodbye to this space now. It served me well back then, but like we all do, I've grown and found other things now that suit me better. You see, I couldn't express in real life how I felt back then, what I was dealing with watching my Dad with MND. So this was my voice. Then I realised oh wow I can say a lot of things here that I can't express due to fear or embarrassment and general learning things about myself etc. Who knew writing a few words on a few posts could help heal so many broken pieces. I'll always be pretty grateful for that.

I'm not saying the things I wrote where any good, jeez some things are just pure depressing (I won't be reading them back haha) but I do hope they show anyone who may stumble across them that they aren't alone in their struggles. And I highly recommend writing your shit down! 


10 years seems like a long time when looking forward but looks like no time at all when looking back.



Thank you 'This is Me' 

Much love, Beth x

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  1. Anonymous19 February, 2025 06:08

    Xx

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  2. Anonymous19 February, 2025 11:52

    You have come so far Beth, and you're dad would be so very proud with how you have coped and continued to live xx He is forever in your heart xx Stay strong xx lots of love xx Shell xx

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