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Grief Poem

55.



I put my make up on to face the day
But deep down I just want to hide away
I smile to hide my frown
But look in my eyes and you'll see I'm down

I'll continue to laugh along
But it inside feels wrong
I'll join in conversation
But my mind is full of confusion

I want to feel like myself
But something is missing
That sparkle has faded in oneself
It feels like I'm drifting

I hope soon the pain fades
That pain won't go in a matter of days
I must remember your smile
It will carry me for awhile

I know you'll be watching me now
I hope I've made you proud
You wouldn't want me to cry
So I promise you I'll try

You will never disappear
As I will hold you near
In my mind and in my heart
We will never be apart

Much love
Beth xx
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  1. Suey24 February, 2015 19:45

    Awww Beth that is beautiful, your dad will always be proud of you as you hold him dear in your heart, his strength is your strength, your emotions will be all over at the moment, they will settle in time but your dad will always be there in the background urging you on to fullfilling your dreams.
    You can talk to me any time about your dad, he was a lovely gentleman, it was a pleasure to have met him, and his smile was infectious, he smiled we all smiled back.
    Lots of love and hugs suey x x x

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  2. Unknown03 March, 2015 16:26

    Thinking of you xxx

    http://www.rainbowsandunicornsblog.co.uk/

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