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2017

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What a year!

The first 6 months where lived by a very angry hormonal mess! I’m pretty sure most people couldn’t wait to get away from me, I had zero tolerance for anything!

So during this time we got new carpets and our bathroom redecorated and the second bedroom turned into a nursery, even though all these things were my idea, my goodness they added to the uncontrollable rage I seemed to have developed...

Those first 6 months consisted of me wanting to buy every single baby related item I saw, baby scans and test and a belly that grew and grew to the point where I alternated 4 or 5 dresses I had as they where the only things that fit, and when they became too tight I ended up basically living in a maxi dress and pjs!

Then June appeared, the month I became a mummy, a long 10 days later than I should have but anyway, 3 days of contractions followed by a 2 hour ‘active’ labour! At 16:22 on June 14th my life forever changed and I became a mummy! Amazing.

The 6 months that have followed since have been filled with open and frank conversations about poop, pee and sick and anxieties on a whole new level! 

Although I have had moments of struggle with doubting and questioning my own abilities I have had the most amazing year of my life. I never thought I would be maternal but I’ve surprised myself. I have such an incredible bond with my little girl she is my absolute world! My main goal is to make sure she feels happiness and love, and right now I feel like I have achieved that. Sorry to sound like I’m bragging but I usually am dragging myself down and I don’t want to do that today. I want to feel proud, of myself, my husband and our amazing little girl.

I hope in 2018 I will build my confidence up, I will tackle the silly worries I cunger up in my blurry mind and I will continue to grow and be happy, and ya never know maybe try for another baby. 

I have made lovely friends that I hope to creat more memories with next year. I’ve discovered a new favourite band that I’m sure my neighbours are sick of me singing along too. I’ve developed an addiction to tea and I watch Friends every single day! 

So to sum up, finally, my brain can be fuzzy sometimes and it may tell me I’m rubbish at everything but you know what?

I’m not.

To family, friends and happiness. I wish you all a positive 2018. 

You are worth it and you can do it.



Love
Beth xx

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  1. What a beautiful post! Also, I love your photo - your tree was gorgeous, and so are you!

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